Last week I wrote a post about my love for the mosque and the film unmosqued. The film is about people that are disconnected from their local mosques and Muslim communities. I recounted how in my childhood by the will of Allah I had the blessings of a good community, of uncles and aunts in the community as well as brothers, who certainly shaped my perspective on Islam and also what an ideal community to me may look like. We were a colourful mix of different people, languages, ethnicities and origin, but what bound us was Islam and the German language.
I love them, even though, as to my utter sadness, I hear that in the last few years it has been getting less diverse and participation is waning, with a number of families such as mine moving away and other families retreating into their shells. My feelings haven’t changed and I miss them and pray that Allah returns the old vibe to the community. I pray that everyone could experience such a community, as I had.
They and most importantly my parents fed my love for Islam, as I saw it in their actions but with age that love matures. When you’re young, you try to imitate all that your parents do you follow the motions of prayer, imitate the recitation of the Qur’an etc. it all affects you. But what do you do, when you are suddenly on your own? When you decide what you want to do and not your parents? When you are miles away at university? When you are asked out by your classmate? When you are invited to go clubbing, to a party or the pub?
Your parents aren’t there to guide or force you. No one needs to tell you that it is haram you most likely already know that, so what would prevent you from doing the above mentioned, if not the love for God and the way of life (Deen) that He (swt.) gifted you with?
I personally can not express how much I love Islam. I’m often asked about Islam, most of the people that I know, know that I’m Muslim. They notice that whenever there are girls or alcohol involved in a party that I’m usually not available. So whenever something happens that had some Muslims involved they talk to me. We do have discussions, sometimes we agree with each other, sometimes we agree to disagree.
In an online discussion on the caricatures of our Prophet Muhammad saw. I was once asked what it was that attracts me so much to Islam. Back then I answered that the way I was brought up certainly had a big role to play, but above all it was the Qur’an, its meaning and its recitation draws me nearer. Today, older hopefully wiser, that is truer than ever. With my continued study of Arabic and the resources that are available today, my loving the Qur’an and the depth in it, is increasing daily. With every single action I learn of the Prophet saw. I get to know him and love him more. Knowing that he cried for me in the darkness of the night, worried that I may not make it to Jannah. I love him.
Every single lecture I attend, every single seminary, every single video and every single book, every single morsel of knowledge causes me to understand more and more and love more and more. My love for Islam has matured, it isn’t based any more on my love for my parents, or my love of the community. It is based on my own love for God and His prophets.
This love will, God willing, continue to mature and evolve, as this life is a journey and with every leg of the journey, the experience of it will shape and increase my understanding. InshaAllah. This journey will be filled with setbacks, I will fall (into sin) and hope and pray (for forgiveness) and stand up and return to Him and inshaAllah draw nearer to Him than before I fell.
Abu Huraira (ra.) reported that the Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said that Allah (glorified and exalted be He), the Exalted and Glorious said, “I am near to the thought of My servant as he thinks about Me, and I am with him as he remembers Me. And if he remembers Me in his heart, I also remember him in My heart, and if he remembers Me in assembly I remember him in assembly, better than his (remembrance), and if he draws near Me by the span of a palm, I draw near him by the cubit, and if he draws near me by the cubit I draw near him by the space (covered by) two hands. And if he walks towards Me, I rush towards him.”
May Allah cause every pitfall, every slip up every setback that we may have to be a means to draw closer to Him, to repent to Him. May He help us increase our love for Islam, our thirst of knowledge as the Prophet saw. said that: “The seeking knowledge is the obligation of every Muslim.” [At-Tirmidhi] May Allah (swt.) increase our beneficial knowledge. Amin.