the problem with me is that I over think situations, maybe my being introverted adds to that. I think out conversations in my head, the way they might turn, what I may say and how I may respond. Even with all that planning in my head, I never manage to say what I want to, either it comes out all jumbled trying to keep up with what I’m thinking or the moment has passed.
It is my fear that I would be quiet, that I would be silent in the face of injustice. Fearful that I would not be able to fulfil the commandment of God. To be with the righteous and stand up against those treated unjustly, even if those that are doing the oppressing are of our kin of our friends. This month is all about confidence, the first post on confidence with regards to God. Knowing that whatever God has in His hands is better than whatever we may have in ours. The second post about confidence regarding the Religion, being confident about being a Muslim. Not being self-depreciating and not internalising the hate that is thrown at us daily. To stand up and teach our community of our values. The next post will be about self-confidence, about not being fearful of speaking up. The challenge is not necessarily to speak more but to speak when it is right and to speak for what is right.
Not being silent, when someone is being abused whether that is verbally or physically. To defend with words, fully formed words. I am not the most eloquent, I am not an orator and I don’t need to be, but what I do need to be is being able to speak up, when it is needed. To stand up for justice and stop being silent in the face of injustice. What I need to do is is implement the injunction of Allah in my life. I want to be loved by Allah swt. [Surah Maidah: 42]
O you who have believed, be persistently standing firm in justice, witnesses for Allah , even if it be against yourselves or parents and relatives. Whether one is rich or poor, Allah is more worthy of both. So follow not [personal] inclination, lest you not be just. And if you distort [your testimony] or refuse [to give it], then indeed Allah is ever, with what you do, Acquainted.
[Surah An-Nisa: 135]