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Videos? Love ’em

I’m fascinated with videos. I’d love to be able to make my own, that I’m satisfied with. I think I lack the ability and organisation and endurance to plan a shot though. I mean I’ve done, or well tried to do daily vlogs and they were all really unplanned, boring even.

I was uncomfortable with asking people I knew, if they’re okay with being filmed. Such a simple question really. Two friends in particular have asked me not to film them (which is understandable), so it’s made it harder to film the things that go on around me, in addition to not having a general plan.

Even with the Video for the ISOC that was a problem, to the point that I don’t know whether I should put the video on private or public, as it is at the moment. Especially with all the legal consequences that could theoretically arise should a person in the video tell me, that he didn’t want to appear in it. I should probably check out the laws involved, but as I understand from last time I checked up on it, they said it would be okay to film any person that is and can be seen in a public sphere. Whether the University grounds are public is a different question.

Any way, that wasn’t really what I wanted to write about.

Videos unmistakably capture a moment whether good or bad and relay these to us, the viewers. Tell us a story or just look great. There are so many different cool videos out there. The success of YouTube and other sites like Vimeo, show us how much they have become part of our internet lives.

I think I do watch quite a unhealthy amount of videos, whenever I’m not out and not doing something with the family or reading (whether online or offline) you can probably guess what I’m doing.

Normally I’d watch a video, and go on to another without really thinking about it afterwards. What I’d like to do is showcase once a week my favourite video and maybe talk or write a bit about why I found that particular video so great.  I’ll do two categories, one Islam related video and one that fits everything else.

Regarding the Islam related videos, I’m quite hooked onto everything Nouman Ali Khan posts. I’m subscribed to Bayyinah, and so it is quite possible that one of those is my fav video of the week, Islam related. In that case I might write about that video, but post my 2nd favourite video.

Please forgive me if I miss out on a week or something, I guess I’m not known for writing something regularly.

That all said, here is the first video, my fav of the day if you will, not really Islam related, but well just watch it.

Wa Salam,

Abdur-Rahman

Awakening

Something is bubbling, spewing and churning inside of me,

a tingling in my feet. I  fell asleep.

My whole being did, soul, heart, body and mind, it went deep.

Time to let myself be free.

The expression of my self stunted, frozen in space,

the tingling spreads, this feeling as if dipped into the black sea, you see it wasn’t supposed to be like this.

They said, I was meant to reach high but all I ever did was jump once in a while, always crashing back never reaching, never earning, always missing what I aimed to do.

A pitch black maze came into life around me, around the time of accountability.

My sins commanding me, see  this was all about looking out for number I.

I died, a dead man walking,  see the despair around me?

A blind man watching. Hear the screams travelling over seas?

A deaf man hearing.

Fearing terror. Loving lust, reaching just for dust.

They hail me as one living, feeling, thinking entity

but don’t they know  that I have died, sinking, drowning in the coldness that is, me?

But that was then and this is now.

I’m telling you how my being came back to what it was meant to be

what is expected of me,

before I finally perish here, here on Gaia.

My heart is stirring, beating to this beautiful ayah.

[ Al-Baqarah 2:186 ]

 Trying to respond, anything else would surely be my doom.

Believing in Him, Trusting and Worshipping only Him, striving for this deen.

Gaining strength, to walk the straight path, at least an arms length.

For this is what I was meant to do, for this is what I always wanted to do.

Warmth surrounding me now,

I silently make this vow,

to always return to Him, for my me is nothing without Him.

Now or ever, to never let my self, my I, have a higher rank.

A blanket covering me, my rizq. Ya Allah grant me sakinah.

My eyes open,

No longer deaf to the sweet sounds of comfort.

No longer blind to the beauty of this life, with its tribulations and desperation, its peace and bliss .

I am Awake.

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